trust easy to lose hard to gain back.

Ok this has been racking my brain for a few weeks now,
If you have seen some of my older post you'll see that my girl friend at the time had been cheating on my for i don't know how long more than 4 weeks though, and now thanks to her I have found it very hard to trust Becca. Do I want to trust her? yes but i still have Vic in the back of my mind knowing what she did to me an how much it hurt. I don't know what to do about all this crap other than try to trust her.

God bless
Nathan

update I guess

Finaly got to hang out with Becca yesterday, o my gosh she's awsome! If there's any one that I want to spen the rest of my life with it would be her in a heart beat!

God bess,
Nathan

teen guy + love = who knows what!

lol the tital kinda says it all! yes I'm a dating mess that could explain why i feel like a bit of a player. I don't think online dating when the other person's freaking 12 hour car trip aways really ever works out. But i did find a great girl that thank God lives like 5 minutes away she's beautiful she's awsome i love her! O my gosh I hope this works out! ( I love you Becca!)

God bless,
Nathan

haha what have I got myself into???

ugh I starting helping one of my friends (Paige yes the same girl thats my ex) with a bunch of her probs and yes im helping her alot but she does stuff to screw it all back up! Some times i don't know what to do but im praying my butt off and doin what i can!
O ya the girl that said she was going 2 kill me send me a email saying she was really sorry and she was just going through hard time and just got really mad so were cool now!

love and life sucks

sadly me and Paige only last a day thanks to her parents not being very happy that it was online when mine were! Then the girl who I had to say no to has siad she's going to kill me and Paige if she ever see's one of us! Ya im kinda glad I said no she seems to be a bit of a phyco, I'm glad I almost always have a pocket knife on me (I live in the country it's kinda a must have!)(no I never plan on useing it on any one) Im glad he doen't know where I live. Ya so now i'm a bit uneasy right now i have alot going on. Pray for me.

God bless
Nathan

wow life can be even more of a shock!

ok I was talking with another ex (Paige) and she brough up getting back togeather which I was all for and so now I think God mnt me to hold of till her and not Vic ugh! ok s after 2 hours of txting me and Paige are back togeather couldn't be happier (o ya reason why not vic even if I could I don't think I would right now she said yesterday that she needed some time to get over Joey so im going to talk that as a maybe later)